le quinzième

Being so aware
But out of control
Gasping for the air
The last few drinks stole

Hitting the hard floor
Then being pulled up
Always wanting more
You refill your cup

Your throat fills with bile
The window appears
Still vomiting while
They hand you more beers

As the whole room blurs
Mind’s starting to slip
The aching gets worse
Life loses its grip

Faces all around
Uncomprehensive
There is no more sound
You’re failing to live

Yet all is not lost
Consciousness returns
This time at what cost
Your whole body burns

Your brain shakes and throbs
Your legs will not move
Your frame racked with sobs
You wait to improve

Your balance is back
Your vision is too
An empty six pack
Stares straight back at you

The clock tells you ten
Your hair and clothes reek
You’ll be here again
The same time next week

nul

You know, huh? You know. You know, you know, you know.
See the thing is, I don't think you do know. So stop saying it as if I'm the one with the problem.

le quatorzième

You would think
The countless missed opportunities
The continuous bad timing
The constant failures
Would be reason enough
To concede defeat
And let fate have his way

But despite these crushing efforts
My stubbornness lives on
And she is willing to challenge destiny
To regain her chapters
To reclaim her character
To rewrite this conclusion
She will fight for her happy ending

le treizième

How do you know
When it’s changed
How do you know
When it’s become more

More than you ever thought possible
More than you ever imagined
More than you ever intended
More than you ever wanted
More than you can take
More than the first innocent comment

Which sparked
Which grew
Which burst into life
Creating a fire
From which there is no escape

You know
When it’s too late
You know
When you’re beginning to burn

dieux

The reason we live is to die like gods.

le douzième

Not every second counts,
Not everywhere is someone's home,
Not every day is worth waking up for,
Not everybody has a soul mate,
Not everything happens for a reason.

But every second is different,
Everywhere is different,
Every day is different,
Everybody is different,
Everything is different.

That's the beautiful thing about being human,

Things change.

l'onzième

There are people who annoy you; those people who get on your nerves because honestly, they just fuck you off. Those people who you can't stand and you don't know why, but you don't actually care.

Then there are those people that really get to you. The ones who know the little things that drive you insane and aren't afraid to burrow under your skin. The ones who make you fume and cry and scream. The ones who push you, further and further, closer to the edge. The ones you toss and turn over. The ones you are desperate to unravel. The ones who pull and pull at you until you are undone. The ones who snap you, so you want to hurt them as much as they hurt you.

And it's these people who are the most valuable. Because whether you like it or not, they understand a part of you like nobody else. They care enough to get inside. And once they're in, you'll never let them out.